Alive

Travis Greene has a song called Alive that I absolutely love. Here are the lyrics:

Ah ah ah...
I'm alive in You
I'm alive in You
Oooooooooooh
I'm alive in You

In You I live and move and
Have my being
So I'm alive
I'm alive in You
(repeat)

Wake up to see the dawning
Of a brand new day
The sun is
Shining brighter than the day before
I'm in love with You so much more
And every time I seek Your face
I'm reminded of Your saving grace
In Your presence I stand amazed
And I'm in awe of Your Beauty and all of Your ways
I've nothing else to say
So here's the highest praise

Hallelujah!
I'm alive in You!
Hallelujah!
I'm alive in You! (repeat 5x)
I'm alive in You!
I'm alive in You!

I live to worship You, Lord!
I live to worship You, Lord!
I live to worship You, Lord!
I live, I live in You!
(repeat 3x)

Hallelujah!
I am alive in You!
Hallelujah!
I am alive!
Yes, I am alive!
OOOOOOOOOH
I am alive!
I'm alive in You!

The song is so beautiful and so pretty and while I loved it before this past weekend, I love it all the more now!

This weekend, in conjunction with May 29th, has been so monumental. On May 29th, I was ordained as a licensed minister! My family came down for the Ordination Ceremony at church and it was a great time of fellowship and elevation. So many things shifted in my life with that elevation and it's all for the better.

This past weekend, June 12th, was Pentecost Sunday. I didn't know there was such a day but, as Pastor began his message, I was informed rather quickly. Pentecost Sunday is all fine and dandy except for the fact that he was preaching from Acts where the Holy Ghost fell on the peoples and they all began to speak in other tongues. Why is that a problem? Because I had been wanting to have such manifestation in my life for years and all of the different services where people would say, "The Holy Spirit is in this room! Pray in your heavenly language. If you haven't spoken in tongues, this can be your day...just ask Him to fill you," didn't amount to anything. So, I'm listening to this message pretty sure of what was to happen...everyone will speak in tongues, some new folks will be filled with the Holy Spirit and here I am, Minister, still without the manifestation of tongues. Furthermore, I really struggled with the concept of having the Holy Spirit because I didn't speak in tongues. While I know that tongues is the manifestation of the Holy Spirit, I couldn't wrap my mind around having Christ live on the inside of me without the evidence that He does.

As Pastor was wrapping up his message, I was fully prepared to worship God but not really push to have that manifestation because it didn't happen before and I really didn't feel like being let down. Now, I'm not sure if it was him saying, "It's not enough to carry God inside of you...," validating that is very well living inside of me even though I don't have the evidence or if it was him saying, "Why not today? Pentecost Sunday? Why not say, 'I have nothing to lose and everything to gain?' And some of you all's problem is really just doubt," but I decided to really give it another try. To save time, I was filled with the Holy Spirit that Sunday! While I was definitely excited, I was mostly humbled. I mean, I had the most negative, doubtful attitude prior to and God decided to fill me with His spirit nonetheless! Yea, I cried like a baby and had mixed emotions. While I was elated, I was also feeling quite penitent. 14 people were baptized with the Holy Ghost that day and it was ridiculously amazing to have experienced that.

Since Sunday, the song mentioned above, has gained a deeper meaning! Outside of God, His presence, His will, His way, live is horrible! Compare my life before and after Christ, the latter is so much greater! Truth be told, there wasn't too much before Christ that I completely enjoyed and had a hard time giving up. My hardest struggle was breaking an addiction and no one wants to be addicted...I mean, you have no control over self. But now, now that I have Christ and He's overflowing in me, I smile just to think that He decided to get comfortable. Every second of my existence is through Him and I am humbled to be a carrier of God...to take Him wherever I go. I'm carrying precious cargo and have to make sure that I don't find myself in a position to be robbed, mugged, hoodwinked or bamboozled. I have to protect it at all costs but most of all, give in to His spirit and allow myself to be led by Him in all that that means!

I'm alive!

Here's a link to the song: http://youtu.be/RTZladDzMRM.