It's been a year since the last time I blogged. I created this blog to release frustration...to talk about things that I was going through because I didn't have anyone to talk to them about in person - everyone was suspect. Reading the previous blogs, it's obvious how much I've changed.
Pastor preached a sermon called, It's My Time (from 1 Samuel 1:26-28). He mentioned that Hannah was barren because God had closed up her womb. He said sometimes we aren't producing because God put a stop to it...He shut us up. His shutting us up is a good thing because we may be birthing in a season when we aren't quite right and the atmosphere for which we birth sets up the growth of this spiritual baby. So, it's a good thing but God never took away the desire to birth...or the anointing, power, gifts, etc.
In this year between blogs, I have gone through so much that I don't have enough space, time or energy to explain. Let's just say, I've gone through the wilderness, confronted a couple of pains, cleaned out a couple of wounds, laid on many altars, cried so many tears, lost loved ones, gained new ones, dealt with forgiveness...or the lack thereof, went through grief and realizing the reality of it all and then dealing with a calling to ministry. In a previous blog, I stated that I am a natural born writer. It's true, I was born to write. I was born to write because I am to tell my story through my words. Furthermore, I am called to preach and teach and I have to be able to effectively write up sermons and such that it will reach those who are lost. If I had went along with this blog in the time that I started it, it would have been full of bitterness, anger, resentment and a bunch of other deadly, poisonous things. Now that I am in a new place in life, the words that I write will be directed more toward life. I promise that these words will touch your heart beyond belief...they've touched mine! I have so many journals and each time I reread a journal it touches me as if I didn't write it.
I am beyond excited to write and share what God has given me to share OR to simply give you bits and pieces of my testimony. Today was a day that was really difficult as my brothers and I are dealing with family issues and I literally had to press into His presence. I sing on the praise team and instead of singing the songs we rehearsed, we sang He's Able by Darwin Hobbs and I Made It by Meaghan Williams. I needed these songs so much because it was a raise of faith to know that God will handle all of my issues, heartaches, pains, insecurities, finances, meals...He's Able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all we could ever ask or think. And serving notice to the devil, I MADE IT and IT'S OVER! I refuse to let him continue to try to put me into depression or anger or bitterness or unforgiveness or doubt. My God is big enough and that settles it!
After shouting until my throat hurt and dancing until my chest felt like it was burning, I was out of breath and my legs felt like rubber, praising God for just being who He is and lifting the burden of family issues, etc., Pastor handed me my minister's license. That really sealed the deal. It sealed my faith, my calling, my walk, my tears, my prayers, my pain, my studying...none of it was in vain. It's my time and I was born for this! I will forever press to get into the presence of God for He is worthy to be praised and He's beyond deserving of it all!
Welp, I don't know how to close this blog without going in so, let me leave you with this: Raise your faith! Don't wait until the battle is over; SHOUT NOW!!!
~Charity Faith~
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